To Anyone Wondering about My Current Condition

I confess that my mind is erratic. I keep changing it, being haunted by conflicting Hopes and fears; especially fears.

Emotionally, I am a mess. The last crisis had left me drained, exhausted and almost-destroyed, with my OCD and anxieties now running amock, all across my mind.

And my body is extremely weak, as bad as in pains from the hit I sustained, falling in the snow during my flee, at that most terrible of nights one week ago.

There's only one single thing, which maintains me still: Babruysk; my immense Love to it - and the knowledge, this sweet knowledge, that soon, I will again be there... as well as the sweet thoughts, of being near my Best and Closest Friend in the Entire Universe, A TRUE ANGEL, who lives a few dozens of kilometers from Minsk.

Now - I do miss my Mother (even though she might refuse to believe me), and Uncle and Aunt, as well as many of my most beLoved Places in israel - but, apart of my immense emotional shock, at the horrifying genocide which... "my"(???) people have been carrying out in Gaza during the past two months (absolutely regardless of the fact, that hamas' crimes have been no less vile!! No difference between those two "governments", really), I cannot go back, as my return to israel, to racist, violent, cruel and genocidal israel, shall put my Life at an extreme danger... as those monsters (the current israeli government and its mad, trampist supporters, commonly known as "bibistim" and "kahanistim") are BOUND to kill me, for calling for Peace in the land.

So, my only Hope, is to go back to Belarus... assuming my mind and body would not collapse before I do.

As only Babruysk shall heal me.

Only Babruysk.

Only Babruysk.