Mental Fatigue

More and more often it has happened to me recently - my brain just seem to stop working. My thoughts - I cannot hold to them, they come illogically... even this post, I feel, is by far less coherent. Than my usual ones.

I do stupid things, and then wonder - WHY THE HELL did I behave so senselessly??? WHY???

In an hour, it will be PRECISELY TEN WEEKS since I have left Israel - or, rather, israhell. Ten weeks of a nomadic life style, if you call this "life". Ten weeks, of never knowing where - IF ANYWHERE!! - will I live next week; sometimes, not even where would I sleep the next night. Wondering between countries, cities, hotels and hostels, alone and simgle all the time, forced to eat at Cafes and Restaurants - well, I like it, but - I can't really say that I have so much money left for it, after such a long time... - simply because I cannot cook, in some places - not even make myself a cup of Tea or Coffee (depends upon the place I'm staying at - in "Zvezda" I could; in "Amaks Babruysk" = not)...

It has taken its toll of my brain, it seems.

This mixed-up and incoherent post is to explain to my Friends, why do I seem to behave, and react, so stupidly and illogically sometimes. 😰

I need a permanent place soon... but have not yet got to see a single one, of all the apartments in Babruysk, Minsk and Gomel that I wrote too...

Mental exhaustion and fatigue.

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